“then one day you’ll realize you’ve memorized my phone number
and you’ll call it and find it’s a disconnected line.”
Honestly, I have no idea what I’m doing. I don’t know if my heart is really in this blog. I don’t really feel like I can truly be me here – the me that I’ve always been, not the parts of myself that have changed and matured since having kids. I also feel defeated. The small glimpses that I’ve given of my true self have resulted in being harassed, both in real life and online.
When I opened One Mom, Two Boys, I was pregnant and my sole source of employment was being at home with my son Quinn. This blog was intended to chronicle my life as a stay at home mom and how we survive from day to day. But we are surviving just fine and it’s not as crazy as I thought it’d be and anyway, there are a million blogs like that and I don’t think I could ever stand out among some of the amazing ones out there. Plus, there’s the complication with the name. Will I always be “One Mom Two Boys”? Or will I someday be “One Mom Three Boys” or “One Mom Two Boys and a Girl”?
Not only that, but a lot of things have changed. I’m not just a stay at home mom now. My photography business is taking off like I never expected it to and I’m thrilled. It keeps me busy. If I’m not doing that I’m working part time at my old job. I get out of the house, I spend time with friends. My husband and I go on dates. More and more I’m finding the old me, while still maintaining all of the love and adoration for my children. I’m realizing I don’t need to change my whole entire life to be “mom”… I can still be me, too.
For that reason, I am going to slowly phase One Mom, Two Boys out. I might check in from time to time to update about strictly family matters, but eventually the website will fade away. It might happen soon, or maybe I’ll drag it out.
In the meantime, if you happen upon here and this is what you see, you can find me here at my new venture:
Say Cheese and Wine will be hopefully where I find my home and my niche. I love blogging, but I can’t only be just a mom blogger. I love many things, and I want to talk about them without feeling like I have to stick to strictly family matters. Just pretend I am kicking off my slippers, putting on my
high heels (oh who am I kidding, I hate fancy shoes…) Birkenstocks, and sitting back with a glass of Three Buck Chuck and my camera with it’s memory card full of photo sessions to edit next to me, taunting me. This website is going to be a lot of the after 7:00PM, after bedtime Nikki. I hope you enjoy the ride.
Oh, and by the way…there will still be mom stuff. How could there not be? My kids are a huge part of my life. I love them to pieces. So you’ll see them lots still.
As Quinn would say, “Adios, amigos!”